Friday, July 29, 2005


I am so attached to my work. I need to break it. There is a real danger in finding security and even identity in what I am doing. Realised that I have put self value in my performance just like most people out here in HK would.

I need to rest...physically.

Emotional torture is over. I have a good friend back.

This weekend I m gonna chill out and read Calvin and Hobbes. I miss a tiger and my computer.

I wish I can revamp this blog but have to wait till Toosday, till Neek's birthday is over. This template is soooooo freaking ugly.

Monday, July 25, 2005

Neek Lee

Nick is one of the most unforgettable friends I have in life. I think he could be my best friend who is best in a different way than Tayo.

It was funny how I used to tell him that he could be the male version of myself. We love a few similar things..i.e. worship music, computering, cooking, shopping, and talking online. It was even funnier that one time, he actually allowed me to put nail polish on his fingernails. He was just soooooo cool!

It was him that got me interested in DTS. So, you know how important he is!!!

So, he will turn 27 sometime next week, and I think I promised to get back the minimalist look on my blog to celebrate his special day. Even though it sounds silly, still it is nice to remember a promise.

Happy birthday Neek. You know it has been always nice to chat with you all these times all these years.

Sunday, July 24, 2005

The best thing

Well, one whole week had passed. Where have I been?

I have been emotionally tortured for a few things but the information is reserved for the privileged few here.

Was planning on doing a full makeover in the middle of last week during a stormy night and then because of the crazy thunder, I had to shut William down because I want him to stay alive. I dont know when I will be putting back the DTS blogring links because I dont get online at home now. All the html stuff was saved on William and I dont feel like doing it from the scratch here (office).

If you are wondering what was the best thing.. hehe... two nights ago, I dreamt of a tiger. A sweet tiger, my pet. He was huge and cuddly. He could take the whole couch and would run away when some mean people shoo him off. I woke up and wish I had a pet tiger.

Funny. It has been a long time since I read Calvin and Hobbes.

Oh well.

Sunday, July 17, 2005

all by myself...JUST wanna be, all by la la

I must say, it has been a very good day.

All my favorite songs were on W this morning at The Vine. Not that it was particularly important, but it made me happy. The service was great. Wished Caryl was there. We spent all our energies and lots of money yesterday down in the Central. That's why she was hiding out today.

I, on the other hand, didn't get as tired as I wished. After passing the Yuen Long station on KCR, I decided to cruise all the way to the terminus at Tuen Mun, where Lawrence currently lives. Could have called him up, but I was so carried away being alone. So, for the first time, I explored Tuen Mun all by myself. Tuen Mun is not that exciting. It's just like Kwai Fong.

On the way back, I stopped by Yuen Long, got myself a mango dip cone at McDonald's, and some lok lok for So Young.

Sweet day.

Saturday, July 16, 2005

Something about the D School of Jan 04....

I will normally check my smartcat at once in a while because there hasnt been active mailing activities there. And yesterday when I got in, I received a surprise present from Nancy Liaw. What a blessing. This girl I miss has been quiet for almost a year and I even thought she remembers me no more. That just gave me an idea....I will drop a bomb on Adeline, who was a Kings Kid, whom Carrie misses.

So apparently Carrie will not be coming back to Asia. I know what to tell Caryl.

Heard from Faby recently that Kevin is getting engaged with some Spanish girl he met at university.

Nicky and Brandon, who has recently became an uncle, are both working hard as FEET has now started. Nicky is the co-leader of FEET!!

William and Rose are both staff at YWAM Ensenada. It is amazing how closely involved we are in each others lives even today.

Catherine is planning her way back to Hong Kong...hopefully. Imagine the Lighthouse with her, me and Nicky.

And so many of them (Cat, Liz, Carrie, Rose, and Will(??)) will be going to see darling Kristy in Canada.

Have I forgotten to mention anyone?

I think we are too good to be true. Feels like we are still together!

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Father 2

This morning I was frying chicken with some help from the SBS from Kona base. Father put me in the leader's heart to pray for me. So, Elijah and Jan (not married) came to me tonight and spoke bunch of blessings and words of knowledge over me.

This is the first time I am personally blessed by a visiting team.

I am so loved by the Father. So loved.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Happy Birthday Joe

He is 53 today. If I have known earlier, I could have made him a big bowl of noodle with chicken soup and chinese wine. I heard the Feeters will be visiting his house for their progressive dessert tonight.

One thing I forgot to mention... last weekend, we welcomed our new roomates Jeremy and Scala to our Lighthouse. They were coming to participate FEET but changed their minds to staff FEET. The Lighthouse would have been called the FEET staff house if I weren't living there.

FEET 05 finally started on Monday. With all the schools and program going, we only have 3 operation staff left on the base...Anna Jane, Caryl and me. Anna Jane is heading home (Wollongong, AUS) for furlough this saturday. Then soon, Caryl is going to go. And then, I will go too.

This half of the year will be pretty interesting for me. Whatever happens in this 5-6 months will determine what I will be doing next year.

We'll see what the kitty drags in.

Sunday, July 10, 2005

Unusual Weekend

After lamenting about not seeing much of me anymore since I worked in the kitchen, Brandon suggested that we should go out for coffee sometime. So, yesterday afternoon was it.

It was the first time I went out with B, and the first time I took a free bus from Tsuen Wan West to Kwai Fong. B said, that way we could save the transportation money for our Pacific Coffee's chillinos, but he ended up paying for me.

We spent the whole afternoon talking and walking the plaza with our chillinos. We got ourselves matching anklets to commemorate our little 'date'. He made us fettuccine alfredo for dinner and then we watched 'Hero" together. He left the Lighthouse almost midnight.

It was unusual because I totally didn't expect we could do so many things in a day and I havent been so relaxed since I got back from outreach! It was unexpectedly pleasant.

Saturday, July 09, 2005

It was all night prayer last night. Prayer and Feasting...Ams prepared so much snacks.

The worship/intercession time was demon terrorizing.

I had a new kitchen record. I cooked 30 lbs of chicken one night and there wasnt any leftover!!!

Catherine sent me the newest Passion CD "How Great is Our God". That song has been ringing in my head for the last 12 hours. Catherine, I know how much you like that song. I am just as obsessed as you are.

The base is so full of people now, just like during the Christmas Outreach. I really like the King's Kids. How I wish they will stay here forever.

I am completely exhausted but completely satisfied and happy.

I love being busy like crazy.

Tuesday, July 05, 2005


I have a picture of my Heavenly Father's hands holding mine, both of us holding on to each other, refusing to let go.

I will never let go on Father's hands. My eyes are fixed on His face. As I look into the eyes, I see the reflection of a person.

So, this is what Father sees of me...

I get it!

To be able to know how Father sees me, First, I have to look into His eyes.

Monday, July 04, 2005

King's Kids International of YWAM El Paso

These kids are solid and on fire for God. They are the revival catalysts of their generation!

It is an honor to serve them and even having them swallow my entire kitchen! They thought the fish porridge that I made tasted like chicken porridge.

Tina called this morning. I gave her the mobile numbers of all the people on the base that has one.

Happy July 4th.

Sunday, July 03, 2005


Well, this El Paso KKI (King Kids International) team is hungry! I must have forgotten that they are teens.

My fruits are almost gone. Cereal and Milk completely wiped. I have two empty fridges with some eggs and few loaves of bread.

It will be a sad breakfast tomorrow. Very sad.

And they will have to endure fish porridge for lunch. Nick oversalted the baked fish last night and I thought up a perfect redemption plan.

See, I am getting good at this now.


Saturday, July 02, 2005


Due to the good food Frank had the past week, he came by my planet and gave me a reward. First it was a rotten orange, which I immediately threw into the lapsap bin. And then this used BEE & FLOWER anti-dandruff hair conditioner, which someone from a visiting team left behind. It was really appropriate. I needed to get conditioner today but I forgot.

Just thought it would be nice to let the world know what I am planning on making next week.

Ham & Cheese sandwich, Caesar's salad, Beef with Broccoli, Green Bean Casserole, Eggs & Tomatoes, Fried salted peanuts, Chillied Pork, Stir Fry Bok Choy, Kung Pow Chicken, Baked Sweet Potatoes and Marshmallow, Beef Stew, Eggplant with Spicy Sauce, Fried Rice, OILY Tuna Sandwich, Shepherd's Pie, and Malaysia Culture Night Specials.

I am pretty sure things won't turn out the way I planned. That was how it has been the past week.

Carrie, are you returning to your university in the fall? Caryl and me are curious!!

Friday, July 01, 2005


I guess it is Jung Hee, my anonymous comment person. Hope you come back and visit my blog. If it is not you, then it's Faby! If I am correct, give me a present. That Ipod flashdrive/mp3 player is nice.

I guess being the Kitchen Angel is really hard. The longer I work, the more I found out little things that I didn't know, the more I found my responsibilities increasing in exponential rate. Despite people raving about the good food being produced, I still think I am a poor manager in overall. Sigh.

I guess there will be all work and no play time. I just realized I am feeding at least 70 people till the 3rd week of July.

I guess it is true what Amsterdam told me, food manager doesn't stop working.

I guess I would need to improve my improvisational skills because this has to be my standard operating mechanism now. That goes along with the last Park N Shop order where I ordered 25 big cans of Tuna Fish in OIL for my intended Tuna Fish sandwich which I have never liked.

You don't have to guess this... I am addicted to work.