BLM

I posted some brilliant afterthoughts of my dear friend, William Keomany, about the outcome of AmericaDecides 2008 and that has aged really well, in my opinion. here we are again, now 12 years later, in 2020, a year full of unprecedented events (understatement!), he poured out these words in response to the movement of the day, #BLM. only this time, i have not yet decided whether i could agree with everything (i have gotten a lot more complicated, over the years). but i certainly appreciate his thoughtfulness and care, even if i decided to disagree later, i still stand in support and respect on what he believes in. oh, by the way, i do strongly believe both sides of the political aisles need to quit unleashing savageries at each other and for once, push towards greater good for, well.... more than just BLM. He gave me the permission to post this on my blog this morning.

So, ladies and gentlemen, here goes....

For far too long, I have sought to find a middle ground in every situation. As a stereotyped model minority, much to the same privilege as my white friends, I have allowed myself to believe the justification of the murder of Blacks, often through neutrality. After much prayer and research, I truly believe Jesus himself would support #Blacklivesmatter, not just through media, but through protest and suffering. It is no longer about left vs right and Democrat vs Republican, but rather right vs wrong, good vs evil, and a system of oppression vs the oppressed. Any thoughts and entertainment of conspiracies and nitpicking to discredit the voice of my fellow blacks is in the same spirit and attitude that fought against Civil rights over 40 years ago and is in alignment with the father of confusion and darkness. Rather than stay safe, may we seek to do what is right.

P.S. I am so proud of soo many of you. Rather than dividing ourselves, I see people from both sides of a political spectrum taking off the blinders and pushing towards the greater good.

8 years

November 11th yesterday.  We made the 8th return of the date since 2006.  So much had happened (initially here, and eventually on FB).

So, yesterday KK and I took a day off from work to play, to celebrate....and to run errands. 

So here, I made an appearance (in a photo) for the first time since 2006 !! I was about to eat that plateful of awesomeness which I craved for, for at least a year!

Little did I know, I was about to suffer some aftermath violent stomach pains .  Sigh.
Nevertheless, the smile on my face before that ordeal was worth capturing.   I had a good day. Happy that I married this wonderful man, whom I can say, even after 8 years later, a better human being than I am.

Oh yeah, we are the cool couple that don't do selfies like the rest of the world. 

    

Michael

I freely admit that I am a huge sucker for Michaels. They are all incredibly talented and special. 

First there was Michael Chung, then Michael Wong, for a while, there was Michael W. Smith, Micheal Kors (not really, just kidding).

I have known Michael Chung since....too long ago.  I actually have a few endearment terms for him, among which, he probably likes Mulder the most, which is why he calls me Scully now :) .

Back then, I had always thought he was 32 (even before he was 32). He told me his age once, and of course I have forgotten what it was because that was again, too long ago. 

Every year I would send him the same birthday greetings - reminding him how fabulous he is being 32.   Today is his birthday again.  32nd, of course.

And he absolutely loves me for that. LOL.

Menopause

So, I have been thinking about it for a while.  No, actually just for a few days.

I suppose, being almost 38, I am not to worry about this anytime soon. (Gosh, 38 - almost!) . 

I suppose I just want to say, menstruation is a nuisance.  And as much as (I thought) I wished that I was a dude, I actually don't.  There is other mess to deal with, so I heard.

So, I wish menopause would come sooner. 

12 years is too long. 

Bedtime Story 2

Cat had finally returned to visit her good friends in the Animal Kingdom. She saw and held Cockroach's daughter. The family was happy and complete.

Panda came and introduced her husband, whom Cat had already knew. They were blissfully in love and acting totally newly wedded. They were happy and complete as well.

Then there came the news about Turtle. In Bedtime Story 1, a lot of friends were curious about Turtle's love life. And to Cat's surprising delight, Turtle had also fallen in love with a remarkable person. Turtle told Cat that since Cat had gotten engaged in the former home of Panda and Turtle, the residual anointing in that house must had caused Cockroach, Panda, and Turtle to all find their non animal significant others in the span of 3 years. So they were very grateful to Cat, even though away from the Animal Kingdom but remained loved and favored for a long time.

That was a really good trip back to the Fusionland and the Animal Kingdom for Cat. Cat looked forward to the next trip..perhaps in the next trip Cat would be able to see Turtle getting hitched although, it would probably be said and done at Turtle's own speed. Turtle said we should not expect her to do it at Cockraoch's, Panda's or even Cat's speed.

Nevertheless, once very close friends, Cat, Panda, Cockroach and Turtle, all lived happily ever after along with their respective partners in the Animal Kindgom and other places wherever life took them.

The End

Bedtime Story

Once upon a time, there lived four good friends in the Animal Kingdom of Fusionland who dwelled peacefully with the humans.

The four friends were Cockcroah, Panda, Turtle and Cat. Cockcroach, Panda and Turtle had been good friends for a long time before Cat arrived in the Animal kingdom. Panda was extremely fond of Cat because she was so adorable and smart. So,very quickly they became close friends.

Four of them, who were very different from one another spoke the same language as the humans of Fusionland. They played together, worked together, ate together and even travelled together. Life was always lots of fun. They were all extremely funny in their own ways and they never failed to make themselves laugh until they cried, (except for Cat who never cried).

The time came when Cat had to leave the Animal Kingdom to get married. Cat was very sad because she loved all her animal friends in the kingdom. She missed Panda every day. She wanted to come back and visit the Fusionland all the time but she was stucked in the Nevernever Land. However one day the opportunity came when she heard the news that Cockroach was getting married. For that reason, she could again come back to the Animal Kingdom and visit her animal and human friends. She was happy!!!

Not long afterwards, she heard another good news, her Panda was in love and would be married too. There went another opportunity to go back to the Fusionland. And it was a great joy in the Animal Kingdom because Cockcroach's wife had just given birth to a baby. So Cat not only visit Panda and Turtle but also Cockroach's baby.

Now, Panda and Cat are looking forward for Cat to return to the Animal Kingdom. But Cat says, maybe the next opportunity will come when Turtle gets hitched.


This story is based on true characters. Due to security reasons, their real names have been changed.

Cockroach is Cockroach because he kept reprising the role of a cockroach in some 'guidelines video'.
Cat has always been all cat (and nothing else) wherever she goes except for when being in the Nevernever Land where she cannot be herself.
Turtle is Turtle because Panda said so.
Panda is Panda because she said so.

Notable events in 2008

My brother got hitched and did my ancestors proud by delivering an heir less than 8 months later.

My grandfather made it to heaven at the age of 103 years. I still miss him everyday.

KK and I visited Kimchiland, one of the most amazing countries in Asia.

Two of my closest friends got engaged.

I made it to the Pandaland once again.

Reconnected to many friends on Facebook!!!! :)

Screw Everything!!!

A year has passed by without much progress. Maybe there was somewhere, sometime, somehow and somewhat I felt a certain breakthrough. Perhaps I've matured more in my thoughts, in terms of taking responsibilities, and how to be proficient and competitive in the real world.. and yet, i witness my heart slowly dying.

I have no more desires. It becomes a dirty and a cruel word. I am completely lost. I am indeed that far off that I do not know how to come back. The anger continues. I am actually angry at the fact I am this angry. It is a place where I know nothing can make me happy. Not even the thought of God. So maybe here is the problem. I lost hope in God, so there's nothing left to look forward to. Everything is screwed. God, what do I say to you? to myself? I just dont know what it is about anymore.

Screw everything!!!

i have been wanting to say those two words here for more than a year and i finally did.